What have I been doing??

So I know that I have been MIA for a little bit. Pretty much after Christmas, I was working on a huge project that took over my life for the month of January. While I didn’t make the best food choices, I really made an effort to hit bootcamp. I actually did a pretty good job on it too. My biggest setback has been my knees. They are in so much pain. Not shooting pain all the time (but sometimes), but more of a dull ache. I pray that they don’t get worse, but I can’t stop doing bootcamp. I have also added Zumba which I love but it is tough! My first class, I was gasping for air! But I am sticking with it. As of right now, I average about 4-5x a week. I am still struggling with nutrition. I am really trying to stick with WW. This lady I know lost 56lbs!!! 56!!!! So yea, I know it works.

On a personal front, there have been some personal changes in my life that I won’t go into, but I have joined the online dating world! And….its not for me. While the first initial couple of weeks were fun, flirting a bit, having fun, I realized…wow, these guys pretty much just want one thing. Well, aside from THAT, they want me to send pics of myself to them, yet put no effort in having a conversation with me or getting to know me. As I have said before, I’m not looking for true love, but damn, can I get more than: “Hey, your hot, h r u”. Please??? Learn to spell, or even just spell the words out. Besides, I am much more fabulous in person! So with that said, I am trying to make an effort to go out more and meet new people.

So my focus for this week is to prep my meals and exercise.


Reconsidering Approaches to Obesity

scale, weight loss, obesity
I came across this article tonight after seeing a link on Twitter. It made sense to me and I wanted to share it with you and maybe get your thoughts, too.

What You Thought You Knew About Obesity Is Wrong.

from CNN.com written by Dr. Aaron E. Carroll an associate professor of pediatrics at the Indiana University School of Medicine and the director of the university’s Center for Health Policy and Professionalism Research. He blogs about health policy at The Incidental Economist and tweets at @aaronecarroll.

(CNN) — I’ve written quite a bit about medical myths, so I’m always a bit skeptical about medical “knowledge.” But one thing I, and I’m sure many of you, think we understand is obesity. After all, weight issues crop up in media constantly. Just last night, Gov. Chris Christie was joking about donuts and his weight on The Late Show with David Letterman, and the First Lady’s weight is once again a subject of discussion in the Washington Post–even though by any objective standard she’s in great shape.
We know how people gain weight, and we think we know how to lose it.
Except a study in this week’s New England Journal of Medicine shows us that’s just not right. Pretty much everything we “know” about obesity and weight loss is wrong.
Let’s start with some things that are true.

More than a third of Americans are obese. Many more are overweight. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention estimates that obesity-related medical costs were almost $150 billion in 2008, and the cost in health related expensed for an average person who was obese was more than $1,400. This doesn’t count the physical, mental or quality-of-life toll that obesity can levy on a person.
Few of us dispute that we need to do something about this problem. There are plenty of experts (present company included) who will tell you what needs to be done. The sad truth, though, is that lots of that advice (even mine) turns out to be mistaken.

I know I’ve told people that making small, sustained lifestyle changes is the best way to lose weight over time. But it turns out that making such changes, say by deciding to walk a mile every day for five years, results in far less weight loss than you’d expect.

I’ve lectured people about the importance of physical education in schools, and I’ve seen countless reports declaring that the decrease in PE nationwide is one of the reasons that more children are obese or overweight today. It turns out that studies don’t show that’s the case.
My family loves watching “The Biggest Loser.” But I’ve found myself telling my kids again and again that what’s shown on TV isn’t the best way to lose weight. I tell them that slow and steady works better in the long-run than rapid weight loss. I also tell them that setting unrealistic weight goals can actually sabotage your efforts. So imagine my shock to discover that what evidence exists in this new study hints towards ambitious goals being a good thing, and that quicker weight loss isn’t less likely to be kept off in the long-term.

People will say eating breakfast is a good idea when you’re trying to lose weight, because it will keep you from binging later. But studies show that there’s no protective effect from eating breakfast at all. People will say that eating more fruits and vegetables is a great way to lose weight. But studies show that, on their own, eating more of them without making other behavioral changes doesn’t result in any weight loss. There’s no magic to fruits and vegetables.

People will say that snacking in between meals can lead to weight gain. But studies don’t show that to be the case either. In general, people compensate for snacking throughout the rest of the day. In other words, it’s not necessarily bad to snack outside of usual meal times.
It’s all enough to cause one to despair. But just because so much of what we believe is wrong doesn’t mean we still can’t do something about the issue.

Studies do show that you can absolutely overcome genetic and familial factors to lose weight.
They show that significant physical activity can help with weight loss, and that it has the added bonus of making you healthier in general. Reducing your caloric intake works overall, especially if it’s done in a way to change your overall eating habits. Getting the whole family involved is important. And finally, for some, bariatric surgery can result in life-changing outcomes.
Over the past five years, my wife and I have lost quite a bit of weight. I’m down somewhere between 15% to 20% of my high of more than 200 pounds. My wife lost even more, although I’m not going to give you any numbers (I like being married).
Now that I look back, if I’m going to be honest about it, I did it in bursts over a few months here and there, each time gaining back less than I had lost.

Each time, I had ambitious goals of 15 pounds or more in two to three months, and each time I really restricted my caloric intake. But I’ve kept the weight off by radically changing my overall eating habits.
My breakfast consists of just coffee, I eat very light lunches, such as salads, and dinner is usually a healthy home-cooked meal with the family. My wife cooks way more than she used to and is obsessed with finding ways to make meals healthier. I avoid fried foods almost entirely, and I can’t remember the last time I ate in a fast food restaurant. I also get to the gym two to three times each week.
I don’t tell you this because I think this is what you should do, or because I think it’s the key to getting thinner. I tell you this because more and more, I think that the journey to sustained weight loss is a very personal and individual path. Perhaps our problem is we’re trying to find a one-size-fits-all solution. I’m not sure that exists.

Lastly, what was left out of this new scientific paper was prevention. The single best way to fight obesity is to avoid it in the first place. That has to start when kids are young, and it’s a lifelong journey. But one thing I doubt will ever be proved false is that it’s much easier not to gain the weight in the first place than to take it off later.

BEST RECIPE – so far…. Cilantro Pork

OK ! So all of my post are about food. But lets be honest with ourselves. When we are on a diet, FOOD IS OUR LIFE! Constantly thinking about what your putting in, craving, burning off, craving, counting, AND CRRRRRRRAVING!!!!

Tonight I made an E-Meal that was the best one so far.

I have put photos and the recipe below. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did!!!


Pork – 428 a serving – 2+ servings – depends on how big you cut the pork

Broccoli – 62 a serving – 2 + servings – depends on how much you cook. I used 3 cups – I like broccoli




2 T olive oil
¼ c chopped fresh cilantro – more for the end IF you like cilantro
1 t minced garlic
1 lb pork tenderloin, trimmed
½ t kosher salt, ½ t black pepper

Combine oil, cilantro, garlic, and pork in a zip-top bag.
Refrigerate overnight. Preheat oven to 425° F. Sprinkle
pork with salt and pepper. Bake 20-22 minutes. Cover with
foil and let stand 10 minutes before slicing.


1 T extra virgin olive oil
1 bunch broccolini, trimmed – I used regular broccoli because I couldn’t find broccolini
1 t minced garlic
Salt and pepper to taste

Heat oil in a large nonstick skillet. Add broccoli; sauté 4
minutes. Add garlic, salt and pepper. Toss well and cook 30

In the middle of the night

It’s after midnight, I’m awake.  I hate when I can’t sleep because sleep is valued around here having 2 year old twins.  They fall asleep fast, stay asleep, and sleep in.  On the other hand, I stare at the ceiling most evenings and when the rooster crows, rather “toddler talks,” I dread awaking.  But as soon as I see the smiles on my girls, I melt, and try to take it all in.

This leads me to question why I eat like crap if I want to be here for a long portion of their life.  I feed them healthy foods.  They don’t know what a happy meal is or a happy meal toy for that matter.  Their biggest adventure to McDonalds was on a road trip, we got them apple juice.  They both ended up with the worst butt rash, so now no more stops at McDonalds.  Unfortunately for me, I still eat there on occasion.  Their fries are to die for, literally.  Why would I ingest something that I wouldn’t feed my children, why would I die for these fries and not shape up for the lives of my girls.  I’m working on it.  It’s easier said than done.

I was getting my butt back in gear last week, the scale was the lowest I’d been in over a year.  Then, hubby sent me on a mommy vacation.  Me-only me-for 3 days away from home to relax, eat, sleep, and sight see.  Well, I ate half way healthy, even went to the gym, but now that I’m home, I can’t seem to get my act together.  I think mainly that I’m NOT going to the gym because one of the girls is coughing, and they can’t go to the childcare while they are sick.  I guess it’s an excuse for me.  But this week, my parents are visiting.  So I have to get my butt to the gym.  I always feel better when I go, I eat better too, and I love listening to Daughtry when I’m at the gym, it’s so energizing and upbeat.

Here’s to another sunrise in about 6 hours, my rooster “toddler talking” in 8 hours, and me hopefully making it to the gym in the other 16 hours that remain.


Ugh! Pull it together! part 2

On to more of why I’m angry at myself… You can read part 1 here

Josh had surgery when he was 4 months old and things got bad. I was visiting him in PICU (you are not allowed to spend the night/live at PICU)a couple days after the surgery, and I was talking with his nurse and then all of a sudden every alarm went off, every monitor went flat and about 9 people ran into his room. In my mind I knew what was happening, you don’t live that long in a hospital and NOT know what was happening, but I refused to believe it, I was in shock as I watched these doctors, nurses, and respiratory therapists work to revive his pale, limp, little body. I called everyone I was related to. We had the minister from church come to baptize him, we were preparing for this little life to leave. But he is strong, he is meant to be in this world and he pulled through. Now he is 2 1/2 and you would never know of his trials. He’s a strong little guy.

So, this is why I’m mad at myself. Even through all THAT I managed to put myself together everyday. To take care of myself everyday. To be a strong woman everyday. I showered, did my hair, put on makeup, wore clean clothes, and ate healthy food. And now here I am stressed out, broken down and out of shape. And for what? FOR WHAT?! Because I’m struggling with my business, because I can’t provide all the financial support to my family, because I at times regret the decision to start my business?! My family is here and if I don’t pull my shit together and everyday put one foot if front of the other I am not being the best I can be. I am not doing everything I am capable of doing. I see that unrecognizable woman again and this time I’m just pissed off at her. “Get your shit together! You’ve been through a hell of a lot worse than THIS.” No more pity parties, no more excuses. It ends, NOW!
 So, when I was about to upload part 2 of “Pull it together” you know what happens… Josh goes to the hospital and I see that same woman in the same mirror. Stay tuned for part 3. You can read part 1 here.